It bears posting... For those who know the story, sorry...

So tomorrow will mark 3 years since I met a woman that I thought would be my perfect match. It's worth posting, because even as I'm getting over her and moving on to other women, I can't help but think back to that night, so full of wonder and promise, and wonder what happened.

We'd known each other for about 3 weeks before we finally decided to meet up for a date. We met about halfway between my place and her place; Salem. We were both giddy, and the chemistry was immediate. We opened up so fast to each other I'm amazed we could recall the information later on in the relationship. We had dinner at Denny's, and then we drove around for a while; she drove because she knows Salem much better than I do.

We found a park along the Willamette River (although we didn't know which river it was that night, as we got really lost!), and went for a walk along the river front. We found a bench, and started talking some, and then all of a sudden we kissed. It was the most unexpected moment for me. Sparks flew, and we could both tell it was something real.

We went and had some fun running around the playground, including me smacking my head hard enough to suppress memory of hitting my head for more than a year, and we fell harder and harder. It was the perfect night.

We went back to drop me off at my truck, and we listened to some music for a short while, then said good night. She left to the south, I to the north. It was a magical night, and one that I will remember forever.

So here I am well over a year after she broke my heart for the final time, and yet I can't stop thinking about that night. I have tried so hard to move on, and I am, but I still can't shake the memories. And I don't think that losing the memory of this night in particular would be for the best.

Anyways, I wanted to get that off my chest. I hope that you enjoyed the tale, and if you have any similar stories, I'd love to hear them.

Early August Post

Sorry it's been so long since I've written.... life has a way of getting in the way. I didn't post it in my last entry, but at the beginning of June I was let go from my job. The day before my sales manager was let go due to not properly training and advising us, and we were given a rousing speech about how we were going to be properly instructed from that point on, it was a new beginning, blah blah blah you get the idea. I went home stoked. 3 hours into shift the next day, bam! Gone.

Anywho...

Not a lot has happened really one way or another. Sadly.

I have been talking on and off again with my friend who came to the lot. She's been pretty busy with finishing her classes, taking her tests, and getting settled in with her new job, so we haven't really had a chance to do anything. It's not for lack of trying though!

Same goes for the young lady who saw me at the store. We've got tentative plans to see a movie, but it seems like our schedules keep getting a bit crossed. She's going to be moving across the country in a few weeks, so I am not holding out any hope for anything long term, but at the same time I'd like to show her what she's going to be missing.

I started talking with the young lady from Plenty of Fish again. She's been busy trying to take care of her girls, so communication has been rather sparse but sounds like we could end up going out sooner or later.

My red-headed friend is now in a relationship, and I couldn't be happier for her. He comes across as a very nice guy, and that's what she deserves. I wish them all the best.

I've started talking with a few other women I've met on OK Cupid. If anything develops, it's sure to be posted here first.

I recently had the opportunity to see a lady I had a torch for years ago, and things were great. I'm not sure what's going to happen, but I'll just kinda keep things as was and see if anything develops one way or the other. It probably wouldn't end up as a case of "The One" as she might be relocating to Texas to continue her career. If anything, we'll always be good friends.

I attempted to sever ties with my ex. I hadn't spoken with her for several weeks, resulting in my removing her from my social networking lists. She texted me not long after, and it wasn't until several days later that she noticed I was no longer on her list on the one she primarily uses. After some bellyaching I re-added her. I don't know why I continue to associate with her. I know now that I was nothing more than a rebound, and while she denies it, all evidence points to that. By speaking with her at all, it lets her maintain control over me and it really sucks. I need to be my own man, and find my own happiness. And that's hard when you have someone hovering who won't let you accept your unhappiness as your own, as well as constantly lord their happiness over you. I would never wish this situation on my worst enemy.

Well, with any luck I'll be able to update more often. Thanks for reading.

And, as always, feel free to drop any comments or advice in the comments. AND, don't be afraid to tell your friends about this blog. BUT, if you know who I am (and you know who you are) DO NOT tell them who I am; some people might recognize people in the situations present and ruin the whole purpose of "Mr. Anonymous"...

Nearly the end of June update

So here we are nearing the end of June, and things aren't going very well in any aspect of my life at the moment. Of course, this blog isn't meant to dwell on any of those but one, so here it goes.

Girls I'm interested in, or have been for a while, are disappearing from the face of the planet it seems like. They just disappear.

I've got maybe one or two good leads, one a gal I unknowingly went to school with that I connected with a few years back online, and we've been talking back and forth since... we ran into each other the other day at the store, but of course she saw me, I didn't see her (when she mentioned it I thought she was someone else I'd seen I thought might be her), and I was DEFINITELY not at my finest... ratty clothes, week's worth of stubble... sexy, if you like that kind of thing! We passed quickly I guess, so maybe she didn't notice...

The other gal I'm sorta interested in is one I did go to school with, had a lot of classes with, and recently re-connected with when she came to me at my work to see if I could get her a good deal, which I should mention I would do for any of my friends. We've been texting a lot, then she got her phone shut off, and now she has a new number, and we'll see if things pick up again. She has a new job, so I don't want to bug her.

The gal I started chatting with off of the Plenty of Fish has been running silent, and I don't know why. I'll try and figure that out, but as I said at the beginning of the entry, I've got other issues to deal with too, more important.

There's a few women I've run across lately that just want to do the physical part, and I find myself debating whether or not I want to give in to the urge. It's been about a year, so maybe I should treat myself, but at the same time I want it to mean something, so I wouldn't really be enjoying myself.

My redheaded friend and I are speaking a little more often now, and perhaps will spend some time together in the near future... We'll see though.

Nothing ever happened with the girl from the kegger... Sad, she was fun....and cute.

My ex and I have spoken a handful of times since we last met up. For the best, but I still can't help but feel a little sad, because I'm losing someone special to me. But I need to move on.

Anyhow, that's really about it. I'll get more in depth a little later on, but hopefully before the end of the month! As always, advice and suggestions are welcome in the comment section.

Love, Peace, & Chicken grease!

May Update, and I'm confused...

Well, here we are, halfway into another month, and once again I haven't written in some time. I'm so bad at this blogging thing.

My friend that I had gone to the game with months ago is now seeing someone. Guess I got too caught up in work to make much of an effort with this one. I hope she's happy, and that things work out for her.

I haven't really talked with The Redhead much over the last few months, but she started texting me again recently. I wonder if she had a change of heart towards me or if she just has nobody else to talk to.

I still have not met the gal I met on Plenty of Fish, but eventually we might actually meet.

After not being able to go out to the club since right after my last entry, I haven't seen either of the dancers. Both are no longer working for that club anymore now, as I discovered last night. The better looking of the two I guess was really sick for a while and then hasn't come back to work yet, and might be at another club. The other one, the one who gave me her number, got busted for illegal substances. Guess there's nothing down that path. Couple of the new gals aren't bad looking though, and now that I have some financial issues behind me, I might be able to relax a little more often.

I met a gal the other night at a coworker's b-day keg party. We met while I investigated the hot tub, which she was stewing in. We chatted for the remainder of the night, and I got her number. She's pretty nice, hope I can go out with her.

That's about it for news. I hope to be able to update a little more often now.

Oh, and my ex has started talking to me more and more lately. She was passing by a couple weeks back and proposed we meet and chat. Things were really awkward. For me, the most awkward thing is that I know she's happy with her current partner, and I'm moving on, slowly but surely. However, she knows how I feel, and still wants me to keep up hope that maybe someday things will work out, and I don't know why I should. It makes me both sad and mad. I wonder if perhaps she'll move on finally, so I can move on finally. I've been contemplating telling her to leave me alone but then again I don't know that I could if I tried.

As always, feel free to comment or give advice. I could use some this time around...

April is a slow month

And yet I haven't found time to update this all month, or since my last entry. Working as much as I do now really sucks!

So I got the phone number figured out with the dancer. We've chatted a bit but I haven't had much time to visit her lately.

I've been talking with a lot of people from my past lately, some for better and some for worse. The ex keeps bringing up things that are causing me pain, although I don't think she knows it. Girls I knew back in high school are talking with me more, and being flirty. Not sure how to process that.

Overall I'm kinda in a slump. Hopefully things gather some steam soon, and I can actually go on a DATE again.

Mid-March update

Apologies for the long gap in entries, but I've been looking for work/starting new job for the last month, so that's my excuse.

Reporting on the developments of my last entry, the person whom I discovered was NOT in a relationship later revealed that she had been on and off again with a former teacher of ours, which I thought was kind of creepy. I haven't talked much with her since then, but I am still open to something with her, should there be an opportunity.

I offered to take the lady that I met on PoF out for a sushi dinner, but we haven't been able to nail down any sort of time to make it happen. She also explained that a part of the reason she has waited to meet since we first conversed on the site was because she was uncomfortable with her weight, and has been losing weight much to her satisfaction; she did mention however she likes "bigger guys", of which I currently fall into that category. Writing this makes me realize I need to get into the gym more often than I have been to get to where I want to be.

A former "flame" has been talking with me recently, and she's proposing we spend some time together. I don't know if anything long term would come of it but I'd be interested in finding out.

On another front, I was helping a friend move, one of the women I've known for years and had previously been interested in, and vice versa, and after I was finished I stopped in at a adult club for a beer and to watch the end of a basketball game. I got to know one of the dancers there (the best looking one that night as it turned out), and we're starting to become friends. She's single, and a little under a year younger than I am. Another dancer, when I returned a few nights later, gave me her number, which she unfortunately programmed into my phone with an extra number. She asked me why I didn't call on my next trip with my friend Joe, and I explained why, but we weren't able to get it taken care of before I left that night. That gives me hope though, along with the fact she asked me what days I had available to spend time with her. She's not as good looking as the first dancer, but she's a looker.

That's really about it for right now. I'll post a little more often hopefully, and let all you readers know what's going on.

And as always, please feel free to leave any comments or advice.

VD Come and Gone....Thank GOD!!!

Well, another occurance of Valentine's Day, or as I refer to it "Singles Awareness Day", has come and gone, with much the same result.

I truly hate February 14th. I have always been single for it, and I absolutely despise that all stores market to the lovely couples from Dec. 12th to the fateful day. I just want to know how many people it takes to haul down all the Christmas decorations and replace them with VD decorations in the hour or two before stores open to the general public!!!

I was very happy to find out that the person mentioned in my previous entry is NOT in a relationship, which means that I'm still in the running for the eventual position! Woo!

That's all for now. As always, questions or comments are welcome.

Opportunity Lost

So I discovered today that one of my interests is now in a relationship. I wish her well.

This comes as a little bit of a shock to me, but then again I'm not surprised. We haven't talked much lately, and while part of that comes from me being busy with my new job (that I just got let go from after only 3 weeks due to slow business), but it also explains the lack of responsiveness on her part.

Oh well... You live and learn, and thankfully I've learned not to put all my eggs in one basket.

Happy New Year update!

So it's 2010 now, and there's stuff on the horizon.

Updates to come in a few.

Things have become very active for me on Plenty of Fish. After not really going on the site for the last 1/2 of December, I went back on and within the first 24 hours had a flurry of activity. Nothing really to write about yet, but there's been some so-far promising messages, but we'll see what happens.

OKCupid has been somewhat active as well. I have received a few icebreakers from people as well as some replies to messages. Again, nothing much to write about yet.

Also, last weekend I went out for a drink or two at a bar and ran into several ladies I went to high school with, all of whom I had crushes on at one time or another. They seemed genuinely happy to see me, to which I wondered where this feeling was back in high school!

Ok, updates on previous mentions.

I haven't seen my Old Friend since the last entry with the exception of giving her a Christmas gift. Nothing fancy, nothing expensive... a small heart-shaped necklace. She seemed to have been caught off-guard about it, and I later discovered from a trusted friend that it might have been a bad idea. Things have looked better as of late though. At first conversations seemed a bit awkward and odd, but quickly settled back into the norm. Last night she texted me and asked if I'd like to come over to her parent's house for a clam dinner. My turn to be caught off guard, but in a good way. I'll let you know how it goes.

Nothing new with the Redhead. We've been talking, as usual, but nothing in the works and I don't think there will be any time soon.

Multi-mom's deadbeat proposed to her, then disappeared for a week. We aren't talking much anymore, through no fault of my own. It's probably for the best.

The stylist I met through PoF cleared out her profile. Too bad.

The Abused Mom and I have stayed in touch, via text, and we seem to be hitting it off nicely so far. She's busy at the moment trying to ready her manuscript (she's an aspiring author) for a publisher to review, so we haven't talked much the last week or so, but we'll see what happens.

Anyways, that's my update. Hopefully it will tide you over til my next entry. And, as always, any advice and/or insight will be welcomed in the comments.