Nearly the end of June update

So here we are nearing the end of June, and things aren't going very well in any aspect of my life at the moment. Of course, this blog isn't meant to dwell on any of those but one, so here it goes.

Girls I'm interested in, or have been for a while, are disappearing from the face of the planet it seems like. They just disappear.

I've got maybe one or two good leads, one a gal I unknowingly went to school with that I connected with a few years back online, and we've been talking back and forth since... we ran into each other the other day at the store, but of course she saw me, I didn't see her (when she mentioned it I thought she was someone else I'd seen I thought might be her), and I was DEFINITELY not at my finest... ratty clothes, week's worth of stubble... sexy, if you like that kind of thing! We passed quickly I guess, so maybe she didn't notice...

The other gal I'm sorta interested in is one I did go to school with, had a lot of classes with, and recently re-connected with when she came to me at my work to see if I could get her a good deal, which I should mention I would do for any of my friends. We've been texting a lot, then she got her phone shut off, and now she has a new number, and we'll see if things pick up again. She has a new job, so I don't want to bug her.

The gal I started chatting with off of the Plenty of Fish has been running silent, and I don't know why. I'll try and figure that out, but as I said at the beginning of the entry, I've got other issues to deal with too, more important.

There's a few women I've run across lately that just want to do the physical part, and I find myself debating whether or not I want to give in to the urge. It's been about a year, so maybe I should treat myself, but at the same time I want it to mean something, so I wouldn't really be enjoying myself.

My redheaded friend and I are speaking a little more often now, and perhaps will spend some time together in the near future... We'll see though.

Nothing ever happened with the girl from the kegger... Sad, she was fun....and cute.

My ex and I have spoken a handful of times since we last met up. For the best, but I still can't help but feel a little sad, because I'm losing someone special to me. But I need to move on.

Anyhow, that's really about it. I'll get more in depth a little later on, but hopefully before the end of the month! As always, advice and suggestions are welcome in the comment section.

Love, Peace, & Chicken grease!

May Update, and I'm confused...

Well, here we are, halfway into another month, and once again I haven't written in some time. I'm so bad at this blogging thing.

My friend that I had gone to the game with months ago is now seeing someone. Guess I got too caught up in work to make much of an effort with this one. I hope she's happy, and that things work out for her.

I haven't really talked with The Redhead much over the last few months, but she started texting me again recently. I wonder if she had a change of heart towards me or if she just has nobody else to talk to.

I still have not met the gal I met on Plenty of Fish, but eventually we might actually meet.

After not being able to go out to the club since right after my last entry, I haven't seen either of the dancers. Both are no longer working for that club anymore now, as I discovered last night. The better looking of the two I guess was really sick for a while and then hasn't come back to work yet, and might be at another club. The other one, the one who gave me her number, got busted for illegal substances. Guess there's nothing down that path. Couple of the new gals aren't bad looking though, and now that I have some financial issues behind me, I might be able to relax a little more often.

I met a gal the other night at a coworker's b-day keg party. We met while I investigated the hot tub, which she was stewing in. We chatted for the remainder of the night, and I got her number. She's pretty nice, hope I can go out with her.

That's about it for news. I hope to be able to update a little more often now.

Oh, and my ex has started talking to me more and more lately. She was passing by a couple weeks back and proposed we meet and chat. Things were really awkward. For me, the most awkward thing is that I know she's happy with her current partner, and I'm moving on, slowly but surely. However, she knows how I feel, and still wants me to keep up hope that maybe someday things will work out, and I don't know why I should. It makes me both sad and mad. I wonder if perhaps she'll move on finally, so I can move on finally. I've been contemplating telling her to leave me alone but then again I don't know that I could if I tried.

As always, feel free to comment or give advice. I could use some this time around...